we have “broken up”! and for some extremely strange reason…..i was able to be super calm and chill and even happy over the phone while i initiated it. in the beginning, i was really worried when he called…i was worried that i would cry over the phone. but he sounded sooo cheerful when he called which lifted up my mood. right away, i said, so you wanna break up right? thats cool lol. n hes like whaaat?! nonooo…why would u get that idea?! and im like…well, you said you needed to clear things up…n hes like lol n proceeded to clarify things. in the beginning, i wanted to REALLY keep him…..so i was like, ok…..well what if i just wanted to let things stay the way they are, and im ok with being unofficial? and he said its fine, just that he was afraid of me getting hurt in the end. so i started getting annoyed…why can’t he just let things be?! cuz i like him sooo much who cares if i get hurt in the end…..so i asked him, well if you were thinking of ending things, then why did u give me hope n all that sweet stuff u did. that’s where he started to honestly explain the truth behind guys reasoning. WOW. was that ever an eye-opener. after he honestly explained it, i completely lost almost ALL feelings for him LOL. went from 100 to like 15. i told him that and he was pissed. i also said that i never thought i would’ve been able to say this, but …. i actually think we can still be friends even after this. and i might not even need that ‘time period to forget him, before we can be friends’ thing. i said i m super comfortable the way we r talking on the phone right now n its so cool in fact, its scaring myself. i said we can b good buddies n he can still call if he wants. he firmly said no and was pissed at how i can do things like this. cuz we promised each other that we would continue on this relationship until the week before he goes back to hong kong….and then during that month he’s away….we can use it to kinda forget each other and move on. there’s still a couple weeks before that day n he said he wants to wait until then….because he still has feelings for me (not “REAL” feelings as he likes to call it, but just ‘feelings’…which i do get) n hes not yet ready to move on so quick. well i told him that its almost scary how calm n relaxed i am about this, n that it never happened before….the fact that i can remain friends with someone right after a relationship ended. and i said that because it’s so rare…i DON’T want to risk it. i don’t want to risk things turning bad when i feel so happy being friends. whereas he, on the other hand….is “still not over me” n feels unfair that i end this abruptly. well i said, mr. player (no i didn’t really call him that), you can take a couple days to forget about me n move on. i on the other hand, will take at least a couple months to forget about it n move on. since my calm/relaxed/happy feelings r so unexpected, i said that i cannot risk losing these good feelings n so i said no i dont want to continue this on for another couple of weeks. he’s like im not going to talk to you ever. im like….ur “ever” is = to a week basically lol. then my friend’s call was on the other line, so i said hey i gotta go my friend’s calling. n hes like YO u cannot just hang up like this u know. you’re going to end this off on a bad note with us. im like what more is there to talk about? its getting late n this is usually the time when we sleep neway when we talk on the phone. n hes like k bye (realllyyy quickly). im lk what? he said k bye really quickly agn. so i was like…….ok bye………lol n yeah im SO surprised i dont miss his daily calls at allll!! woo-hooooooooooooooooooooooooo! all i can say is….he IS a player. but he has reasons that sound right to back it up. thats all. will write another more detailled post when i have time.